it's april.

lama rasanya jemari ini tidak menghentam papan yang sudah banyak digunakan ini. bukan tiada idea cuma apabila malas mula melingkari diri ini, satu benda haram pun tak jalan. sebenarnya memang banyak yang ingin dikisahkan tapi...faham-faham je la.

it's been 2 weeks now after results were announced. to be told the truth, saya rasa orang lain dah rasa yang results saya tu okey. but I can't accept the fact that I've got only that. memang saya mengaku saya tidak 100% menabur komitmen, tapi...ALLAH! kenapa harus sebegitu rupa? rasa macam payah je nak ditelan kenyataan yang satu itu.

okey cukup! dah tak mau fikirkan lagi. what's passed is already done...kan? kita tak boleh nak ubah apa-apa kan? =.="

yeah! it's april bebeh! it's my month! wanna know why? coz it's my birthday in this month! hell yeah peeps! I'm 18 on the 9th which is on saturday. and it's next week!haha. wow! how time flies! rasa nya macam baru je lagi celebrate dengan GML kat rumah last year. and this year kiterang nak sambut again. but this time...will be doing it bigger and somewhere hot in town has been chosen to be the venue.haha

hope and wishes? hm...banyak sebenarnya. but memang hope sangat nak dapat a new lappy and a new handphone. tahu sajela...sekarang nie phone yang ada tuh benar-benar dah mintak ampun dari tuan dia ni. dah tak larat gamaknya especially battery dia. bukan lah saya buat tak reti je, tapi nak buat macam mana. belum berkesempatan lagi nak menukar. hari tu dah nak beli yang baru tapi memandangkan result belum keluar lagi dan terdengar ura-ura ada yang berhajat nak menyedekah pada saya lantas hasrat itu saya pendamkan sja. tapi results pun ntah hape-hape, maknanya memang saya jugaklah yang akan membelikan? lepas tu ada la sorang tante saya ni dia cakap dah alang-alang birthday saya dah dekat, tunggu je la. ada nanti tu.ahaha. saya suka!

itu wishes. how about hope? haha. entah! rasa macam dah takde pape harapan je lagi. but ada satu yang memang hope sangat. nak sangat masuk U and then nak tebus balik all the dissapoinment. boleh kan?

xoxo
=)

Cinta Tak Harus Memiliki

cinta indah
cinta juga bisa berubah menjadi sakit
begitu yang kurasakan kini
perih hatiku tinggalkan cinta

tak pernah terbayangkan
dan tak pernah terpikirkan
cintamu dan cintaku akan berpisah
namun harus kurelakan itu
untuk hidupmu agar lebih baik

reff :
maafkan aku
setulus hatimu
kepergian diriku itu bukan keingininku
terima saja dengan pilihan yang lain dari orang tuamu

jangan bersedih dengan keadaan ini
jika kamu menangis
aku juga ikut menangis
terima saja semua ini kulakukan untukmu

back to reff:

jangan bersedih dengan keadaan ini
jika kamu menangis
aku juga ikut menangis
terima saja semua ini kulakukan demi kebaikan mu

jangan bersedih dengan keadaan ini
jika kamu menangis
aku juga ikut menangis
terima saja semua ini kulakukan
terima saja semua ini kulakukan untukmu

xoxo
=)

Rossa - Ku Menunggu | VC Trinity

Ku menunggu
Ku menunggu kau putus dengan kekasihmu
Tak akan ku ganggu kau dengan kekasihmu
Ku ‘kan selalu disini untuk menunggumu
Cinta itu
Ku berharap kau kelak ‘kan cintai aku
Saat kau telah tak bersama kekasihmu
Ku lakukan semua agar kau cintaiku
[*]
Haruskah ku bilang cinta
Hati senang namun bimbang
Ada cemburu juga rindu
Ku tetap menunggu
[**]
Haruskah ku bilang cinta
Hati senang namun bimbang
Dan kau sudah ada yang punya
Ku tetap menunggu
Datang padaku
Ku tahu kelak kau ‘kan datang kepadaku
Saat kau sadar betapa ku cintaimu
Ku ‘kan selalu setia ‘tuk menunggumu
Back to [*][**] 2x
Ku tetap menunggu
Ku tetap menunggu
Ku tetap menunggu
Ku tetap menunggu

xoxo
=)

break to pieces

setakat sehingga pukul 2 petang 24 mac 2011, saya masih dilanda kesedihan akibat dilambung tsunami result SPM 2010 yang begitu mengecewakan saya. sebaiknya saya tidak berkongsi result saya di sini sebab malu! saya sendiri tidak menjangkakan akan mendapatkan keputusan yang sebegitu rupa. rasa berat sangat kaki ni nak melangkah sebab telah mengecewakan ramai orang tersayang. rasa malu nak berhadapan dengan orang luar yang memandang tinggi pada saya.

O ALLAH, help me to go through this. please guide me through this and please be by my side for all the time now. AMIN.

xoxo

=)

Camelia - Rindu Padanya

Sejak terpandang wajahmu
Hatiku bertanya selalu
Siapa dia mengikat pandanganku

Seringkali dia berlalu
Di hadapan dan menyapaku
Sehingga hatiku seringkali merindu
Tak dapat ku melupakan dirinya
Terbayang wajahmu di mataku

Ingin ku tanya namanya
Tapi hatiku rasa malu
Tak terucapkan walau sepatah kata
Mungkinkah diriku telah dilamun cinta
Oh... hatiku resah selalu

Haruskah aku menyatakan
Perasaanku kepadanya
Mungkinkah dia kini telah berpunya
Getar hati makin terasa
Bila terdengar suara dan bertentang mata
Ku bagaikan bebunga kehujanan
Berkembang mekar
Di setiap ketika

Tidur malamku tak lena
Asyik teringat padanya
Bilakah mentari memancarkan cahaya
Hanyalah dirinya bermain diingatan
Oh...tuhan ku rindu padanya

xoxo
=)

Blue - Best in Me

a very romantic song.hee



From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine
You touched my hand
And I knew that this was gonna be our time
I don't ever wanna lose this feeling
I don't wanna spend a moment apart

Chorus:
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you

Every day that I'm here with you
I know that it feels right
And I've just got to be near you every day and every night
And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me

'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you

And you know that we belong together, It just had to be you and me

'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you

xoxo
=)

Time To Love

this is my first favourite korean song.aha. don't know why...but memang suka sangat with this song. even the lyrics in english pun best.haha


Good person

you´re the first love to me

the person that taught me love

Never forget you

I remember you

I remember only you

Perhaps I´ll see you, so I´m wearing the clothes you bought me

And I cut my hair short like you used to like it

To pass by the way I used to walk with you

I went round the long way thinking maybe you´d be there

I still have the same phone number

Thinking maybe you´ll look for me again, my house is the same

In my mini hompy I just have the songs we used to listen together

Thinking maybe you´ll look and you´ll come back again

We still can´t forget

We still wan each other

We´re still in love

Separated, honestly I miss you

I miss you like crazy

I´ll wait for you no matter what, I´ll wait for you til the end

I stop to think, I´m standing still

Good person

you´re the first love to me

the person that taught me love

Never forget you

I remember you

I remember only you

Thinking that maybe I´ll see you, and if I see you in my heart will tremble

Thinking that my heart will sink and you´ll see me dry and wrenched

To avoid the way I used to walk with you

I went round the long way thinking maybe you´d be there

I already changed my phone number

Maybe I will keep thinking of you so I moved houses

But in my mouth there are still words unsaid

Thinking maube you´ll look and you´ll come back again

Good person

you´re the first love to me

the person that taught me love

Never forget you

I remember you

I remember only you

I want to tell you to start again

But I can´t hear you nor see you even though I´m looking for you

Soaked by the pouring rain

I´m going to the place where we first met

I feel so pathetic

There´s still a warm spot in my heart for you

You can bear it

Therefore I will be able to bear too

But it will be so hard, I loved you so much

Even though I tried really hard, I can´t help it

Thinking that perhaps I´ll see you by chance

And you will look at me

In front of the mirror I wipe my tears

Thinking maybe you will come (Thinking maybe you will come to me)

Never forget you

I remember you

I remember only you

I want to tell you to start again

xoxo
=)